Yes, I have changed my mind. I was pondering my doings for this year and decided to change my way of doing things. I WAS going to do 12WBT but then I thought about how satisfying it would be to complete my journey on my own. I know what I have to do, I just have to provide myself the tools and pull my finger out. Doing the 12WBT would make me pull my finger out, but who says I can't do it myself? I have the determination, I will have the tools, I'm getting my motivation back, why should I pay all that money out for that? I am going to use that money I would have spent joining on setting myself up to go it alone. I'm going to get new running shoes, a heart rate monitor, some heavier weights and maybe a couple of workout DVDs and I'm bloody well JUST GOING TO DO IT!
I mean I have to do it alone at some point right? I can't just keep doing these things to help me get to my goal, I have to learn how to stand on my own two feet eventually. I have to keep putting into practice everything I have learnt and will probably continue to learn if I seek it out (which I will). I will get to my goal, I will maintain and I will become lean, fit and strong and I will do it alone.
I know I have to try harder, harder with my eating, harder with my exercise, and I WILL. I hate that I have changed my mind, I am a big mind changer from right back, but I feel this is the right thing to do, I CAN and WILL do this, using all the tools at my disposal. Wish me luck :D