I write a different post today in reponse to a brave and wonderful post that my husband made on his blog today http://benpobjie.blogspot.com/ . The response he has received is AMAZING and I feel the need to thank everyone for their support of US. This is OUR journey as much as it is his, he is a part of me and we are in this together, even though I know he often feels alone. Not only has Ben's support been amazing but it has also been extended to me and for that I am grateful, so greatful, it's awesome to know that there are so many others supporting Ben and I'm not the only one that he can rely on, there are so many more of you and it's awesome. I have had such lovely messages and I kind of feel like a fraud, I haven't done anything amazing or special, all I have been is a woman that loves her husband and truly wants him to know that he is worthy of my love and that I want him to stick around. We NEED him, not for money or whatever his brain tells him, but because we love him and our world would stop turning without him in it. And I can't explain to him in words just what he means to me, and maybe because that's because there are no words to explain it. But we've been married for almost 12 years so clearly I'm in it for the long haul :)
I can't tell you how proud of him I am that he made this post, and I have known basically ever since I met him that he suffered from depression and that he should do something about it, and I can't say that I'm glad that he hit rock bottom, I would never want that for anyone, but it needed to happen, he needed that scare obviously to realise that there was a problem. I urge everyone to get help it you need it YOU ARE WORTHY OF HELP. Reach out to people that will help you, whether it be in a blog post, on twitter, to your friends, to your family, do it, don't let it get so bad that you would do something terrible to yourself. I'll be honest it's not an easy road, but it's a necessary road. It's been hell watching Ben go through hell, and at times it has nearly broken me but I can't let it, I just can't. I refuse to let it ruin me, I have to be strong for him and I have to be strong for my children. And I can't tell you how happy it made me to read that he's going to fight back, he has to fight, he has no choice, I won't let him give up.
And I say this to him, YOU ARE LOVED. I knew I loved you the first time we ever spoke on the phone. Our children LOVE you, the response you get when you get home in the morning is so beautiful to see. Your family LOVES you, don't ever make me have to let them know that you're not here anymore. Your friends LOVE you because you are you. The response you had to your post is INCREDIBLE and you needed to see that you don't always have to be ON, you're allowed to fall down and your friends will always pick you up like they have today.
And I say this to all of you that read this, my blog followers and mine and Ben's followers (I hope this reaches you) on twitter, thank you, thank you, thank you.