Yes I was thinking, I do a bit of that, and no it didn't hurt ;) But I still cannot really pinpoint how I let myself get so big. Why did I let myself get that far. Not sure if I said at the start of my blog but just after I had my son I was 150kg's which means up until now I have actually lost 47kg's. Of course I lost some of that and also put some of that on with my girls, just before I had them I was up around the 142/3kg mark which puts me having lost 39/40kg's, some of that on my own steam, some of that now with WW. But I just don't know, mostly laziness I guess, I also knew at some point that we would have more children so I guess I thought why worry about getting my body into shape when more babies are going to ruin it? Which is stupid really, I should have done it for that purpose, what can I say but I have the ability to be very stupid at times. I guess a lot of it was finances too, we didn't have a lot of money to spend on weightloss tools and GOOD food, which I already posted about. I don't think I was consciously UNhappy, maybe deep down? But I just don't know why I would get myself into such a state. I'm glad something finally clicked in my head and I figured it out, because I don't want to be self loathing, lazy, uncaring about myself and my health. I need to be a better person, not just for me but for my family too, I know they love me regardless of how I look, but looking better and feeling better makes me a better person.
Anyway, I can't pinpoint one issue is I guess what I was getting at but for some reason the tide has changed and I KNOW that I will NEVER go there again, NEVER. I am determined that this is me now, well almost, I'm not quite there yet but when I do, that will definitely be me, I'll be the skinny girl that's always been trying to get out.