Sorry

Sorry everyone, it's been such a long time since I posted, you can blame my iPhone :D Well I gained the last week, only 300g I think it wasm I had a stressful week this last week and ate some not great things so I'm expecting a gain this week. I haven't been tracking either but that all changes tomorrow. There are only 3 weeks left until a wedding we have to go to and it's not that long until Christmas, eeeekkkk. I'll add some new photos too, I had to buy a new summer outfit for the warm weather we were having, I was going to visit a friend and relised I had nothing nice to wear out in public that actually fit me, I had to get rid of my previous summer stuff as it was all 3-4 sizes too big. So that's the picture of me in the red shirt and 3/4 jeans (I didn't end up with the jeans, I got black cargos instead but you get the gist) and the others are in dresses I tried on for the wedding, I haven't made up my mind yet and it would be good to lost another 3-4kg's between now and then. I will put my original photo up for comparison, God I hate that photo but I need to see it to keep me motivated and to show me how far I've come.

Finally a big loss

It seems like it's been a while, it probably hasn't been though. Lost 1.6kg's this week taking my total loss to 18.5kg's, only 1.5kg's to go until 20kg's and only 6.5kg's to to to meet my Christmas goal of being 100kg's :D :D With there being 9 or so weeks to go I should be able to make it, but I MUST keep up with my water, it is a vital part of weightloss and I do know that, it's just hard sometimes, but I WILL do it. Remind me that when I say I'm struggling with my water and I have had a gain :D

Clearing out the cupboard and weighing in

Well I decided to clean out my cupboard, I had to be restrained and keep stuff that's a little too big or else I would have to walk around naked. I am however going to have to go shopping if this warm weather keeps up because I have absolutely NO summer clothes what so ever. One of my pairs of jeans I could fit 1 of my 1 year old daughters in with me and 1 skirt I could have fit my 5 year old son in with me. Really hits home just how big I was to have fit into those clothes, very shocking and shameful, I'm glad I started this journey even more now. I never saw myself as being that big when I looked in the mirror, but my goodnes I was. It was very therapeutic to get rid of those clothes, knowing that 1. I no longer fit into them and 2. maybe another person that was my size might get to wear them instead.

I also weighed in today and lost 1.3kg's :D :D I only have 2.3kg's to go until I have lost 20kg's, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Soooooooooo exciting. It would be awesome if I could lose that by next week, and I'm going to try, I'm going to exercise in some for or another every day, even if it's just running about with the kids and I'm going to try and drink all my water, wish me luck :D

Noticing

Am starting to notice changes in my body. Like if I move my shoulders inwards I can see my collar bones *gasp* I have collar bones. You see them on skinny people right? So maybe I'm on my way to being a skinny person?? I've always wanted to be a skinny person, I used to be skinnier but not sure I would ever say I was skinny, except of course when I was a small child. So maybe, just maybe that skinny person inside me will get out one day in the not too distant future? I find I am having vain moments too where I feel the NEED to look at myself in the mirror, I used to always avoid it, avoid it like the plague but that's changing too I notice. I still have a ways to go I know that, but it's good to be seeing the changes even though I still have many more changes to come.