A big loss!

Woooooot, I think maybe I've got this new program worked out :D :D I lost 2.3kg's this last week which takes my loss to 23.7kg's with only 1.3kg's to go until my Christmas goal. Maybe I will make it? Especially if I've got my head around the new program :D :D Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, happy day today :D :D

Have to dash, a billion things to do, stay well everyone :D

Shopping

Yes you read right I've been shopping, not grocery, well I have, but CLOTHES. We're going away for Christmas to Sydney and also 2 days in QLD, and I really didn't want to go naked, and I'm sure no one else would have either. So away I went to find some new things and I did. And it's obvious that my mind set has changed, I no longer look for black things, I'm injecting colour into my wardrobe which I never used to, I would mostly buy black things, if I ever did buy anything, which I didn't because it made me feel bad. I also bought 2, that's right 2 dresses. I think I feel a lust coming on, a lust for clothes shopping for MYSELF. I never minded buying things for my husband or the kids but always loathed it for myself. But that's changing, I'll have to control myself of course because everything won't fit me forever, but I am actually starting to like it and have doing it, not having to do it and hate it and have it feel like a chore. So because I have been shopping I have some new pictures, will post original photo for comparison, I'm starting to have a love hate relationship with that photo, rather than just hate it. Because it shows me just how far I have come and that's an awesome feeling :D

Before that though, I just want to say how much I have enjoyed shaking things up a bit, and now that I have and I am using most of my points in my main meals, it's amazing, I must have just spent my whole day just eating. I still feel like I'm eating a lot because I feel full and stuff but not eating all the time, it's nice. I have big full breakfasts, lunches and dinner, I usually have my quota of fruit and veg, dairy etc and it's been really good. Hopefully on Monday the scales will be nicer to me than they have been, if not as long as it's a loss I guess it will be ok. I really want to get to my Christmas goal though, will have to try even harder next week if the changes I have made don't do anything.

Ok so here are the new photos:

Only 100g loss this week

That's right, only 100g loss this week. Disappointed? Yes, I was hoping for more as I've only had small losses for a while now. I think it's possible I haven't been following the new program correctly and I think I need to change things a bit. I need to shake things up and I should probably actually start exercising. I'm also going to shake up my eating a bit and try and make the most of my 3 daily meals and not snack on things other than fruit and yoghurt, maybe that's my downfall because I still sometimes have treats. Make sure I keep treats for a treat once in a while, not daily. I think I need an even more healthier approach, I think I'm going to try and eat more nuts and things too, maybe a trail mix to try and have more good fats, try and focus more on fulfilling all my healthy food targets and try to cut out processed foods and eat more fresh things.

I'm starting to worry I don't make my Christmas goal now :( Wish me luck this next week, I think I'm going to need it.

I was thinking today

Yes I was thinking, I do a bit of that, and no it didn't hurt ;) But I still cannot really pinpoint how I let myself get so big. Why did I let myself get that far. Not sure if I said at the start of my blog but just after I had my son I was 150kg's which means up until now I have actually lost 47kg's. Of course I lost some of that and also put some of that on with my girls, just before I had them I was up around the 142/3kg mark which puts me having lost 39/40kg's, some of that on my own steam, some of that now with WW. But I just don't know, mostly laziness I guess, I also knew at some point that we would have more children so I guess I thought why worry about getting my body into shape when more babies are going to ruin it? Which is stupid really, I should have done it for that purpose, what can I say but I have the ability to be very stupid at times. I guess a lot of it was finances too, we didn't have a lot of money to spend on weightloss tools and GOOD food, which I already posted about. I don't think I was consciously UNhappy, maybe deep down? But I just don't know why I would get myself into such a state. I'm glad something finally clicked in my head and I figured it out, because I don't want to be self loathing, lazy, uncaring about myself and my health. I need to be a better person, not just for me but for my family too, I know they love me regardless of how I look, but looking better and feeling better makes me a better person.

Anyway, I can't pinpoint one issue is I guess what I was getting at but for some reason the tide has changed and I KNOW that I will NEVER go there again, NEVER. I am determined that this is me now, well almost, I'm not quite there yet but when I do, that will definitely be me, I'll be the skinny girl that's always been trying to get out.

Consistently Losing

Well I lost again this week. Only 400g but a loss is a loss and I will sure as hell take it. Takes my overall loss to 21.3kg's with only 3.7kg's to get to my Christmas goal. So this week it's track, track, track and water, water, water.

All dressed up with a place to go :)

Well yesterday was the wedding, it was gorgeous, beautiful ceremony and they were so lucky with the weather, it was perfect. And so we had to get all dressed up, so here are pics of me in the dress I ended up getting, I could get used to buying pretty dresses :D

Now the dress was an 18, but really the 16 would have been better. I got the 18 because I had trouble trying the 16 on because the zip is a bit tricky, but it's just the zip (I thought I was going to have to go back to the shop to get the to do it up for me, lol) I think the dress would have fit better. But I loved the dress and felt so good in it, I hope I get to buy more dresses :D But dressing up made me realise that I REALLY need to get in a get exercising to TIGHTEN things up a bit, lol. I have to stop resting on my laurels and really get to work. We're off to Sydney for Christmas which means there will be more people around to look after the kids so I can really go hard core with it, yes I could go out walking WITH them and the girls in the pram are ok, but if Jonah wants to come he is SOOOOOOOO slow, which I know is because he's only a kid and he's got little legs, but when I get out to go for a walk I don't want just want to mosey along, I want to power along so it makes it worth it. But it's definitely time to get doing those crunches and arm exercises to get rid of those bat wings that I've got going on. Weigh in tomorrow on the new WW plan, will see how I go. I'll admit I haven't had a great week I don't think, especially not water wise, must get back onto that next week. My aim next week is to track, track, track, drink water and do some form of exercise atleast once a day every week day, wish me luck.

Another post on the same day, don't you feel lucky??

Ok so I was just getting the kids some apples to munch on and boy fruit goes quick in our house, I even sacrifice my fruit to make sure they have fruit. But that made me think about how much they cost and money etc. Healthy eating isn't cheap people and I'm sorry but that is SO wrong. Bad food should be expensive, honestly everyone is saying we have an obesity problem well that's something that could be done about that. I got to thinking about how we eat now verses how my husband and I used to eat when we were just poor students, OMG completely different and goes to show why I was so large. Can you believe that it's cheaper to buy a packet of frozen pies and a packet of frozen chips verses buying fresh meat and vegetables. Hell we even would buy and eat pasta and sauces as a MEAL back then just to save some money. I'm glad that we didn't have kids back then and that we are now in the position that we can feed them good food. Sure they eat not so good food sometimes but my kids eat wholegrains, fresh fruit and fresh vegetables every day. But it makes me think about families that don't have it as good as we do and how they might eat how we used to and that's terribly sad and I wish someone would do something about it. Fresh food shouldn't be out of reach for anyone.

Knock me down and call me shorty......

I lost weight again this week which is rather remarkable considering some rather naughty food. Maybe as I said last week my body is getting used to this weight loss caper, maybe my metabolism has changed? I don't know but it's a good thing, I've not had 3 losses in a row since I've been doing WW, amazing. So I lost 300g which takes me to 20.9kg's lost and 4.1kg's left to reach my Christmas goal. There's been a huge over haul of WW and the new system is supposed to be great so hopefully that will make it even easier to get to my goal, but I'm going to really knuckle down these next few weeks. We're going to Sydney on the 15th of Dec to spend Christmas with my husband's family it would be great to reach my goal BEFORE we go but I won't hold my breath just in case, but I will have to go on a shopping spree because I only have 1 summer outfit and I don't particularly want to travel THAT light, lol.

The wedding is on Saturday and I bought a dress off ebay, I decided I didn't want to spend too much on a dress that night not fit me for too long, so I hope it fits and it looks good or else I'm going to have to buy another dress, but atleast I only spend $40 on the ebay one, bargain if it's a great dress.

I've also decided for summer before we go away I'm going to chop off a lot of my hair, I think it will be much lighter, cooler and easier to manage in the warmer weather. Speaking of warmer weather I've noticed something, I don't mind it as much as I did, I can manage it better and not be sweating like crazy, it's fab, however that means I am colder in the cold weather but I guess that's what comes with having less insulation :D :D I think maybe I might become a warm weather gal instead of a cold weather gal, never thought that would happen.

Oh and of course I have some new photos. I actually have collar bones, I have photographic evidence, who'd have thought, hehehe. Also because I'm holding off buying new clothes I still have a few fat clothes, especially winter ones as I don't see the point of buying new ones now when the cold weather will pass soon and ones I buy now won't fit next winter. Anyway, it goes to show how clothes maketh the woman, if you don't wear clothes that flatter your shape you're going to look bigger than you are.

Unexpected

Yet another unexpected loss, but yay! 600g down which was a surprise considering it was our anniversary on Saturday and I ate a couple of naughty things (i'll get to that in a minute). So that of course takes my total loss to 20.6kg's and only 4.4kg's to get to my Christmas goal of getting down to 100kg's.

I've been looking back at my previous posts and the photos (to be honest I can't STOP looking at them, hahahaha) The difference is amazing, I can't believe how small I look now, even with still a lot more to lost I look small, could it be that when I get to goal I will be TINY?? That will be a first in my adult life. I was a skinny kid but in my later year in primary school I ballooned, I can't wait to get rid of it all.

I feel that maybe my body is starting to get used to this weightloss caper? I seem to still be able to lose weight even if I eat something that's a bit naughty but eat great the rest of the time, maybe when I get to goal and am on maintenence I can go it alone?? I know that could be a bad thing but I am NEVER, I repeat NEVER slipping back into old habits, I don't want to go back to what I was, I'm beyond that now and I really like the way that I'm going. My new habits are SO much better now, I don't feel the need to snack and if I do it's fruit and yoghurt. I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything at all because I know that that crap is not good for me and I don't want it. I am in control, I can be around food that's not good for me that I once would have just eaten and not and NOT eat it, it's not dangerous for me, I'm not even tempted by it.

Talking about naughty things and not wanting them leads me back to our anniversary. Of course this was a day to indulge but I think I kept things in check. We went out for breakfast, I had scrambled eggs, spinach, some bacon mushrooms, tomato and a hash brown. It also came with a sausage but I didn't eat that, I also gave some of the bacon to my husband and it was delicious. I LOVE breakfast and a cooked breakfast is even better. I skipped lunch, I didn't actually need it after all of that and we were going out for dinner, but I did have a few fantales whilst we watched the stage production of Hairspray (which is you haven't seen it, OMG you should, it was fabulous and we want to go again, LOVE it) and then we went out for dinner. I had a steak with burbon sauce, fries and a salad, I also had a bread roll and some garlic bread. And because it was a celebration we had dessert, which turned out to be a mistake. I had a lovely lemon tart which at the first bite was delicious but that was really enough for me. After the first bite it became far too much and very sickly, it actually ended up giving me a headache. Now once upon a time I could eat a dessert no problem, I'm not really a sweet person (I'm a savoury girl all the way) but I could still eat it if we went out. Well I tell ya I doubt I can do it anymore, I think now it will just be a taste of someone else's, clearly my body know's what it wants and it doesn't want any dessert, not normal dessert anyway, low fat, low sugar I think which means I will have to make it myself, but atleast I won't feel like being sick afterwards and have a headache.

But as you can see I seem to have managed to even things out. Sure maybe if I hadn't indulged my loss might have been bigger, but hey, a loss is a loss and I'm certainly not complaining :D :D

More pictures

Sorry everyone, I am yet again posting more pictures, but I just cannot believe the difference, it blows my mind actually. So there are ones that I took this morning that are definitely 20kg's lost and the white shirt, does that look familiar?? Well it should it's the same shirt I'm wearing in my first picture, different huh???

Look, look, look.

My original engagement and wedding ring fit back on :D :D Just in time for our 11th Anniversary on Saturday :D Yippee!!!!!!

OMG

OMG, OMG, OMG. I am stunned. I expected to GAIN this week but I LOST. I LOST 1.7KG'S to take my total to 20KG's exactly. OMG I cannot believe it, WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

Sorry

Sorry everyone, it's been such a long time since I posted, you can blame my iPhone :D Well I gained the last week, only 300g I think it wasm I had a stressful week this last week and ate some not great things so I'm expecting a gain this week. I haven't been tracking either but that all changes tomorrow. There are only 3 weeks left until a wedding we have to go to and it's not that long until Christmas, eeeekkkk. I'll add some new photos too, I had to buy a new summer outfit for the warm weather we were having, I was going to visit a friend and relised I had nothing nice to wear out in public that actually fit me, I had to get rid of my previous summer stuff as it was all 3-4 sizes too big. So that's the picture of me in the red shirt and 3/4 jeans (I didn't end up with the jeans, I got black cargos instead but you get the gist) and the others are in dresses I tried on for the wedding, I haven't made up my mind yet and it would be good to lost another 3-4kg's between now and then. I will put my original photo up for comparison, God I hate that photo but I need to see it to keep me motivated and to show me how far I've come.

Finally a big loss

It seems like it's been a while, it probably hasn't been though. Lost 1.6kg's this week taking my total loss to 18.5kg's, only 1.5kg's to go until 20kg's and only 6.5kg's to to to meet my Christmas goal of being 100kg's :D :D With there being 9 or so weeks to go I should be able to make it, but I MUST keep up with my water, it is a vital part of weightloss and I do know that, it's just hard sometimes, but I WILL do it. Remind me that when I say I'm struggling with my water and I have had a gain :D

Clearing out the cupboard and weighing in

Well I decided to clean out my cupboard, I had to be restrained and keep stuff that's a little too big or else I would have to walk around naked. I am however going to have to go shopping if this warm weather keeps up because I have absolutely NO summer clothes what so ever. One of my pairs of jeans I could fit 1 of my 1 year old daughters in with me and 1 skirt I could have fit my 5 year old son in with me. Really hits home just how big I was to have fit into those clothes, very shocking and shameful, I'm glad I started this journey even more now. I never saw myself as being that big when I looked in the mirror, but my goodnes I was. It was very therapeutic to get rid of those clothes, knowing that 1. I no longer fit into them and 2. maybe another person that was my size might get to wear them instead.

I also weighed in today and lost 1.3kg's :D :D I only have 2.3kg's to go until I have lost 20kg's, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Soooooooooo exciting. It would be awesome if I could lose that by next week, and I'm going to try, I'm going to exercise in some for or another every day, even if it's just running about with the kids and I'm going to try and drink all my water, wish me luck :D

Noticing

Am starting to notice changes in my body. Like if I move my shoulders inwards I can see my collar bones *gasp* I have collar bones. You see them on skinny people right? So maybe I'm on my way to being a skinny person?? I've always wanted to be a skinny person, I used to be skinnier but not sure I would ever say I was skinny, except of course when I was a small child. So maybe, just maybe that skinny person inside me will get out one day in the not too distant future? I find I am having vain moments too where I feel the NEED to look at myself in the mirror, I used to always avoid it, avoid it like the plague but that's changing too I notice. I still have a ways to go I know that, but it's good to be seeing the changes even though I still have many more changes to come.

A loss

Hooray! I had a loss this week, only 800gms but a loss is a loss and it takes my overall loss to 16.4kg's. I'm not so busy this week so should be able to track every day this week so hopefully a bigger loss next week. The week after however is another story, I will try to track but I'm not sure I will have to time, it's a crazy week next week, eeeeeekkkkkkk.

Zumba

Well today I tried zumba with my next door neighbour. OMG HARD, VERY hard. Whoever said zumba was easy is either much more coordinated than I am or a liar, lol. But we will forge on and keep trying, can definitely see how it would be a good workout, just hope I can become more coordinated. That's possible right??

Small Gain

A small gain today 100g, I lost the last couple of weeks so I'm not too upset about it. I was rubbish with my water this last week so that didn't help. Bring on next week :D

HA!

Goodness, I lost this week, that was unexpected. Nice surprise though, 600gms, that takes my total loss to 15.7kg's. Nice to know that I can still lose even though I didn't track this week, so I don't necessarily have to feel guilty if I need to take a break every now and then.

I bought some new underwear the other day, 3 sizes smaller than I was wearing. Means I can wear my favourite boylegs again, yay! I also think I'm going to have to have my jeans altered to fit better, if I don't I think I'm in for some embarrassing times :D

Odd week

I don't know, for some reason this week I seem to have lost motivation. I haven't really tracked this week and to be honest I can't be bothered. Maybe it's because for the last few months I've been strapped to the computer so I can track and this week it feels too tiresome to do it. I've still been eating good things, not sure if I've gone over points or not, but yeah, maybe I need to take this week off tracking and refocus next week. I think I might do this every so often seeing as I will be doing Weight Watchers for a while?? Just so I don't feel like I am chained to the computer ALL day every day. I think it will help keep me on track. I haven't gone off the wagon though, I've still made wise choices, so that's still good, but yeah not sure why this has happened, I guess maybe it's bound to every now and then?

I made it!

OMG I made it to 15kg's, 15.1kg's to be exact. Yippee! Which means I've gone down a point in my points too. I didn't have the computer to track today and OMG I went 3 points over, whoops! Goes to show you how important tracking is. I'm still new at this tracking business, hopefully by the time I get to goal it will all be second nature and I won't need to track anymore, would be nice to have some kind of a life and not have to worry about it. I will still track mentally and maybe in a little notebook, but it would be nice to not have to be a weight watchers member for the rest of my life.

More new photos

Have some more new photos :D

123.5kg's 111.3kg's

Well here we are at Saturday

Yes it's saturday, only tomorrow and then I have weigh in. I did a sneaky weigh in this morning and put on 200g so that's not good. But I will put that down to the incredily greasy and disgusting pad thai I had last night for dinner. Blergh, never again. I think I will make it for myself next time, soooooo gross. I felt so awful and sick after it. I have eaten quite lightly today to hopefully make up for it and will try to do the same tomorrow. Haven't had the chance to go out for a big walk today but I will try to do that tomorrow.

Wish me luck for Monday :D

Feeling happier

Feeling much happier, thanks for letting me get it out if you're reading this. I had a good week this last week and lost 1.6kg's which took me to my 10% goal and taking my loss total to 13.7kg's :D So I have 11.3kg's to get to my Christmas goal. We have a wedding to go to in November so I'm hoping to have lost quite a bit more by then too. It's formal attire so it looks like I will have to buy a dress. I was going to join the gym yesterday but I've had a really sore foot so decided that I would join later this week.

Here's to another good week :D

Another week

Well here we are into another week. I lost 100g last week, bit disappointing but I know it's because I didn't drink enough water. Water is definitely a big key in this weight loss caper and I am terrible at drinking enough at the best of times, doesn't help that it is so very cold here in Melbourne. I think the winter blues are well and truly upon me, sooooooo over winter, I'm craving the warm weather, I wanna get out there and get moving, not crave "winter" foods. I want the freshness of summer, thank goodness it's only a few weeks until Spring, I'm hoping it will be a lovely warm one. Will be joining the gym this week so hopefully that will help beat the winter blues, I really need some toning too, things are definitely on the sag so will be good to tighten some things up a bit.

Lets see what this week brings. The aim is to drink more water, I don't need to make sure I stay in my points, I always do, and try to get some exercise in.

Yippee!

A loss today, wooooooot. I've had a few little gains but nothing major thank goodness, I lost 1.8kg's today :D I am really doing it and it feels great, so great. I'm am changing myself and my life, it's wonderful. I have felt a few times that I am missing out, but then what am I missing out on really, eating crap? And that didn't get me anywhere good, I can still have naughty things but I just have to make sure I have the points, this is the key. I'm finding that I can't eat as much these days and that is a GREAT thing :D

New photos

So seeing as I've lost 10.4kg's I thought I would post more photos :) I have weigh in tomorrow, I hope it's a good one :D

BEFORE

AFTER -10.5KG'S

Wow!

Wow is all I can say. I lost 2.4kg's this week. Yippeeeeeeee, the key this week was that I ate more points and I drank more water. I think I was saving too many points for no reason, I hardly ever used them. So will see how I go this next week following the same path :D

Wow I can't believe it. It means that overall I have lost 10.3kg's :D :D Right now, it looks as thought it is possible that I will meet my first major goal by Christmas :D

Argh a gain!

Bugger, bugger, bugger, bugger. Only 500g but still, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. So my goal for this week is to drink more water, get in some form of exercise and make sure I track every day. I didn't track properly this week because I was busy and we went out. I NEED an iphone, would make life so much easier.

So here's to a loss for next week.

New photos in new jeans

Well I bought some new jeans yesterday and so took some pictures today so here they are :)

Some photos as requested

Photos have been requested, so I now deliver. And might I say I actually quite like these ones. I actually can see that I look smaller. I mean I notice by my clothes, but it's nice to see in photos considering I usually HATE having my picture taken.

Please excuse the fact that they are self taken but you can get a good idea of how I am going by them :D Will put the first ones taken so you can see a comparison. Also I need new jeans as you will see, so excuse those too :D

So there's me minus 8.4kg's :D :D Almost 2 dress sizes, so awesome :D

My biggest loss

OMG I lost 2.1kg's. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT. This takes my totaly weightloss to 8.4kg's *does happy dance* I have nothing else to say, I am just so excited :D :D

New Tops

So I went shopping yesterday. I needed jeans but couldn't find any in the couple of shops I went to and didn't have time to keep looking. I bought 2 new tops though a size smaller that I was wearing :D :D Well I was wearing 22-24 (so embarrassing to admit) and I bought one top that's 20-22 and one of the is 16-18 and fits perfectly :D :D So happy to see my work paying off, granted I could be working a whole lot harder but my girls aren't sleeping too well right now which results in one tired mummy who still has to look after 4 other people, 3 of them being children and having to look after the house. I will get to the regular exercise eventually, I hope.

My MIL and SIL arrived the other day and one of the first things MIL said was "ooooh look at you skinny minny". That was FABULOUS to hear, I've got a long way to go but that gave me such a boost :D

So as you can see I'm still doing well. Not struggling at all and still very positive, so YAY!

I am doing it!!!

I had weigh in today and lost another 700g, which helped me achieve my 5% goal and takes me down to 6.3kg's lost. And it occurred to me that I am actually doing this. And it's not hard, it's really not. Yes it took a few minor adjustments but nothing major, I wish I had've taken the initiative sooner, but obviously I wasn't in the right place then. But I am now and I am succeeding :D I am excited about the new me, I cannot wait to reach my ultimate goal, I just hope I can make it THAT far, it is a long way to go, but I sure as hell amd going to try my hardest to get there.

Getting smaller?

My husband commented this morning that my tummy looked smaller, so woooooohooooooo. I have started taking measurements so I guess we'll see when I measure next. Am still going ok, this week was a little off with my son's birthday, I didn't eat anything majorly bad, some things I didn't track because I couldn't be bothered working it out and I missed breakfast one morning, so I am eating lightly over the weekend to hopefully balance things out before weigh in on Monday. I'm going to expect a gain because I wasn't so good with tracking but we shall see, you just never know until you weigh in, but I don't want to be disappointed again.

Fingers crossed for me :D

A loss!

Hoorah! I can report a loss of 1.3kg's this week. I have made it to 5.6kg's!! 5kg's was my first goal, so I have actually reached my first goal. Yipppppeeeeeeee *does happy dance*

Maybe I will actually make my goal first major goal which was to get to 100kg's by Christmas, maybe I may even get a little under that even? Who knows, I have no expectations because that only leads to trouble, but I am excited today.

I am also almost 100% better so I will be able to really get stuck in to exercising :D So I may see even bigger losses then?

Today shall be a good day.

Aaaahhh weigh in is looming

So here we are almost to the weekend and it's weigh in day on Monday. I'm not going to have expectations at all because that can only end in misery. Hopefully though it will end in joy this week. We have a few big weeks coming up with some money to be spent, but after that I AM going to join the gym. I need to especially in this weather right now. Hard to get up the gusto to rug up and go for a walk, brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Will be much easier to get lots of exercise when the weather turns warmer. I usually like winter but I have the feeling that the new me is going to much prefer the warmer weather :)

Am still going ok, I'm still going great with my points, only ever been half a point over and that was only once. I usually have points left over, which is great as my points will eventually go down.

So keep your fingers crossed for me as Monday draws closer, even if I only lose a few grams it will be better than gaining any :D

Weigh in yesterday

Was a tad disappointing. I gained 100 grams. I didn't want to gain so early, my hope was to lose, lose, lose. Hopefully I can get a better result next week. I am back into exercise, I have a busy week this week but I am going to join a gym. I was going to leave it until next year when I will be able to go every day if I want but I think subconsciously that was an excuse to still be lazy. I need to cane myself I think if I truly want to get the results I am after, and I do, I truly do. I need to work A LOT harder than I have been, and I intend to. I WILL get to my 1st large goal which is to get to 100kg's or even just under that by Christmas. Keep everything crossed for me :)

Finally taken my photo

This is not a good post for me. Currently I HATE photos of myself. This photo is of course taken after losing 4.4kgs, but that's not a huge amount. Looking forward to posting future picture more than this one.

Blergh. As you can see the pants are way too big already, but the top shows the terrible picture. Hopefully MUCH better pictures to come.

Nothing more to say but....

1.9kgs!!!! Wooooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooo

Getting into a groove

Starting to find myself getting into the groove of this. Getting a little bit easier each day. I'm even finding myself starting to feel hungry at the right times of the day. Before I could easily go without breakfast or go without lunch but I don't think I could now which I think is a good sign.

Went out with mum and the kids yesterday, kids had some cheese pizza for lunch and I could have easily eaten some of that before, but not yesterday, it was greasy as all hell and was just quite disgusting.

Having to track what I eat and being able to look up food items to see their points values is a real eye opener, some things that you think are healthy really are not and it's disgusting that they are labelled so, you reall wouldn't think anything more about it. I was shocked to find out the points value of a roll I have eaten on 2 previous occasions from a large chain that sells salads, I would get it thinking I was being quite healthy but I actually was not. Very shocking indeed.

I forget what day...

LOL, I've lost count of the days. Have still been going well. Have had a couple of daunting times where we've gone out to eat and I've not been sure what to have. I think I've done ok, somethings are hard to track because I don't know what's been in them, so I've just had to judge a few things. I also have less of the portion if I'm not sure, which seems to be going ok. I need an iphone I think as this will help me greatly, when I'm at home I can just jump on the computer to check but when I'm out it's a little bit scary. I'm sure once I've been doing it for a while it will become second nature and I won't have a problem at all.

Am looking forward to weigh in day on Monday, I THINK I am starting to notice a difference, my mum and husband have commented and I think I can see it in the mirror. I am also having to hitch up a pair of jeans that I didn't have to hitch before. All will tell on Monday. Wish me luck for the weekend. We're off to a rugby game on Monday night, which would be good if I could eat hot stuff at the game because it is going to be FREEEEEEEEZING, but I will make myself some goodies to eat and take a thermos of hot chocolate :D

Am going to have a cooking day tomorrow to add to my stock of things I can eat, am looking forward to it :D

Busy Mumma

Argh, have been so busy the last few days. Still sticking to my points, STILL struggling with water and STILL slightly sick. Have been going well though and I THINK I look smaller than I did, will see how I go on Monday for weigh in.

Still getting the stock going in the pantry, got myself some more stuff to eat so I'm not tempted to have anything naughty.

Day 7 Sunday

Did well yesterday. This is getting confusing so I should try and post the same day instead of the day after, lol. Still sick though, can't wait for it to be gone so I can get into the exercise. Still not getting hunrgy even with points left over so I think I'm doing good. Must check more closely my portion sizes, am worried I'm over eating without realising. I guess again once I get into the swing of things I will get to know stuff and it will make it easier. But I think I'm doing well. I'm trying and that's the main thing.

I weighed in this morning, 400gm loss, which honestly disappointed me a little, I do have the little thing that is embarrassing to talk about and I'm sure any men reading would appreciate I not mention, but this can add on extra weight during this time, so I'm looking forward to next Monday's weigh in more than I was this one. And hopefully I will be 100% better this week and I can get stuck into exercise.

Day 6

Still sick but managed to scrape through. Still struggling with water, it being so cold doesn't help either. Made a yummy dinner last night from a recipe from the weight watchers site, it was delicious. Are still sticking to my points and always seem to have points to spare. I know I've got plenty in the bank but I've really had no reason to go over and would feel guilty using them when I really don't need to. It's good to know that as I lose the weight and my points go down, I know I can still do it. I've got today (sunday already planned and have HEAPS to eat with lots of points still left over). I find it better if I plan my day ahead the day before, rather than just eating and adding it up later and then finding I may have gone over. I guess it's because I am new to it, once I get into the swing of things I'm sure I will just be able to eat without planning, but for now this really works for me.

Once I get into it I will get an exercise book or 2 and write down the points of all the things I generally eat, this will make things easier too. I'm still in a great place and feeling really positive, I know I can do this even though I've got a long way to go. It's weigh in day tomorrow (Monday) so we'll see how I have done.

Days 4 and 5

Argh, I am sick, sick, sick. Just a terrible cold but still awful considering I only just got over being sick for 3 weeks last week. So exercise has not gone to plan because I already cannot breathe properly. And because I look hideous and haggard I have not taken a photo either. The last few days I have really struggled with water, only because I have not much energy to really do anything, being sick and still having to take care of others is REALLY hard. I have been good though and even managed to have a Grill'd burger and some chippies ( was sooooooooooooooooo good) and it was all still within my points, I didn't have to use any of my saved ones, I have 21.5 points saved and probably won't get to use them, but that makes me feel good that when I lose weight and go down in points, I know I can still do it, atleast I hope that's how it's going to work.

I really want to get into my exercise though and I know that's really going to help with the weight loss, if I only have small amounts until I'm better I will know why.

I talked with my husband about rewards for goals I meet and he thought that was a good idea. So when I reach my goals he's going to get me something as a reward and they'll get bigger each time. I talk a lot about things I want and constantly circle wanted items in catalogues so it shouldn't be hard for him.

I think I'm going really well, it's hard to remind yourself not to just eat something, like eating something the kids don't want, but so far I have not really struggled with food and being hungry. I have a long way to go so I really hope I can do it, I feel very positive about it though.

Day 3

Went really well. I struggled with the water a bit but I'm trying really hard to fix that. I had 4 points left over to save so I have quite a few points saved up for a treat on the weekend :D Will take pic today and post tomorrow, even though I loathe the thought.

I forgot to say I did the groceries today and got lots of yummy things for me to eat, so am well stocked :D Which will make eating a lot easier :D

Day 2

I did well yesterday, had plenty to eat and still had 2.5 points left over. Am struggling a bit with all the water, probably only 2 glasses off (I actually drink from a 800ml bottle and have been drinking 2 of those plus a little bit more, so probably equivilent to 6 glasses so far).

Tomorrow is grocery day so will be able to stock up on yummy things for me to eat, have made a menu for the week of breakfasts, lunches and dinners but putting them all together each day might be the tricky thing to make sure the points add up, am yet to get the hang of doing this as this is the first time I'm shopping since I started, am used to my old way of making up the weekly menus and then getting all the groceries for it, we shall see how I go.

Will take pics tomorrow, I doubt much has changed since I first started, I will look less like a frump though as I have to go shopping so will make sure I look decent instead of the usual hobo when I'm at home with the kids.

First day on Weight Watchers

So I decided to join Weight Watchers. The time felt right and now that we are finished having children it's time to look after myself. I have almost a whole person to lose :( I'm very ashamed of this fact. I am starting out at 123.5kg's and I want to get down to 75kg's which is in a healthy weight range for my height.



I'm doing it for these guys:
















I want to be around for them and I don't want to be the "fat" mum when they go to school. I guess really they're my inspiration because I'm doing this for me. I'm tired of being this way, I want better things for myself. I'm excited about this journey and will add progress pics, although horrid to begin with, so you and I can see how I am going.

I survived the first day and even had 1 point left over. Go me!