*sigh*

Well it appears that my mojo has completely gone now :( This makes me really sad and I hope it comes back soon. I hate feeling this way but I guess it was bound to happen really, acutally it's probably not the first time, I can't remember. But man this is a looooooooooong difficult journey, really, really difficult. And don't get me wrong, I know I've come a long way and it's not like I'm not seeing results but I do still have such a long way to go.

I try not to do such negative posts but I just feel in such a funk right now and I'm not sure how to get out of it. I think I will take the rest of this week off, have a lovely weekend with lovely friends and hope that my mojo returns on Monday.

Expecting a terrible weigh in tomorrow, but I guess I'll cross that bridge tomorrow, not going to help my funk though *sigh*

Finding it hard.....

Hard to stay motivated with my eating. For some reason this week seems to have gone to hell, and I'm not really sure why, perhaps the monotony of it all? Exercise isn't a problem, I'm totally motivated with that, but my eating, nope. Not that I'm going and eating a whole bunch of rubbish (well only a little bit) but I'm not binging or anything but I'm just not caring. I don't think I've been eating enough with all my exercise as I haven't been putting it into my tracker and therefore have been having extra points and not using them, possibly that's why my weightloss has slowed down? Which sounds weird I know but you do need to eat enough of the right things TO lose weight.

Anyway, I'm going to assume this week will be a write off, I will definitely be expecting a gain unless I find my motivation somewhere by tomorrow. I'll keep up with my exercise, probably even step it up a bit, but don't be surprised if I am reporting a gain on Friday, I know I won't be.

Eureka!

A loss, hooray! 600g only, but maybe I'm done with the big numbers now, which is a shame because I'd love another big loss to get me down into the 80s, I'm yet to crack the 80s and I'd really LOVE to, that's my next mini goal. So my 600g loss takes me to a total of 32.3kgs lost and my weight is sitting at 92.7.

Am up to week 5, well completed sort of, week 5 of C25K. And OMG sooooooooooo hard. I didn't want to vomit and die which was good but I did step on the sides a few times to talk myself out and then in of finishing. So because of that I will repeat week 5 and be sure to finish it properly. Still doing situps, pushups and squats. They're getting easier and I'm no longer getting sore afterwards thank goodness, because I was in SO much pain.

Onto photos, I got new hair and we went to the wedding I mentioned in my previous post :D









So there we have it folks, lets see what this next week brings :D

A gain *sigh*

Only 300g, but it's still annoying. I've been keeping up with my C25K, which is running for 3 minutes as well as 5 minutes and I have also been doing situps, pushups and squats (only once though, will talk about that in a minute), but I'm assuming I have put on muscle and that's accounting for the gain, but still grrrrrrrrrrr. It's much nicer to see the scales going down, but I think I will go to taking measurments more regularly now because in a week I lost cms so that is encouraging. But I also must remind myself that I am also getting fitter which is also a plus of doing all my exercise.

Back to the situps, pushups and squats, OMG they are HARD. I'm still in pain from doing them, paticularly the squats, clearly I've not used these muscles nearly enough before now. I've not done them again since because I have been sooooooooooooo sore, but I will, I think I will slot them in between the days I do the C25K which means I'll be doing some form of exercise every day with Sunday being my rest day.

So that's where this week has taken me, lets see what this next week brings, I've been a bit indulgent this weekend I will admit, so I'll be working VERY hard this week to hopefully not see a gain, eating extremely healthily and maybe even saving a few points here and there because I think I will have used more than my bonus points, oops!

See you next week, I'm sure i'll be late with my post AGAIN, because we have a wedding on Friday :D :D

Photos, Pondering and Progress

Ok first things first. Weigh in today and I'm down another 900g, which takes me to having lost 32kgs, 93kgs is my current weight and I have 23kgs to go until I get to my goal. I'll be honest and say I'm a little bit disappointed in 900g, I was hoping for more as I've been good this week and have been doing the C25K program as I'm supposed to, but I'm still happy it was a loss.

I had a little cry today thinking about how far I've come, and it really is a long way. And the fact that I am doing the C25K program even though it's really quite hard, especially considering I've gone from no running to being able to currently run 3 minutes, which is good seeing as I am still curring that extra 23kgs. I've still got a way to go, but I'm really proud of myself for continuing on with it even though it would have been so easy sometimes to just give up. I am still VERY determined to get to my goal, I've come far too far to give up now.

The C25K is going well, I just today completed week 3 day 3 of the program (i'll be honest with some difficulty) and it is getting easier. This week wasn't that easy so I think I will repeat this week next week. But I have made progress, I no longer want to vomit and die when I finish, and today I didn't get the shakes afterwards like I normally do when I finished today, so I have definitely made progress. I will get to the end of the program, not giving up now. Am also thinking about getting some more weights, we've got some but I don't think they're heavy enough, need to get rid of the bingo wings I've got happening.

So, time for some photos. We have another wedding to go to so there are some dress pics too, have decided to go with the black and purple dress :D Oh and the last picture is of my old boardshorts with new boardshorts on topm bear in mind when I first got the first pair the buttons used to pop open, I can fit into one leg of those boardshorts now ;)

Running, running, running.

Well the title says it all really, I've been running. Restarted the C25K program and loving it. It's not easy, it's a challenge, but it's really great. I find at times when I normally would pike out on doing exercise I just get on with it and do it which I great, seeing as I went from being a sporty person to being a sloth. I've just completed week 2 and although hard I do not want to vomit and die like I did when I first started, so that's evidence of progress.

I had a loss in yesterday's weigh in 800g, not a lot but a loss is a loss and I'll take it :D Have nearly lost that nasty 5kgs that crept back on, and then hopefully I'll keep going down and down. I feel I've REALLY got my mojo back. I'm tracking, I'm not nibbling on things I shouldn't, I keep my naughty food days to the weekend and then am really good for the rest of the week. I'm still terrible with water, better than I used to be, but still terrible (I know, I know) but doing the running is forcing me to drink more which I good :D

I did my measurements again and since last month I have lost another 4cms off my waist, 6cms off my hips, 3cms off my bust, 1cm off my arms and 1cm off my thighs. So since I started I've lost in total 24cms off my waist, 26cms off my hips, 22.5cms off my bust, 4cms off arms, 6cms off thighs and 6 dress sizes. That's a solid effort I reckon in 1 year and almost 2 months. I probably could have been much more dedicated etc but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way, especially when you've got 3 small kids :D But as I always say, I'm determined to get to my goal and I KNOW that I will :D

Will post some photos next time I blog, which will hopefully be next Friday after I weigh in (fingers crossed for a big one :D)

Sorry Folks......

I left it a long time again, sorry guys. Have been through some personal things that I won't go into, but things are going well and I'm back. Needless to say I got off track a little and put on nearly 5kgs in 2 weeks, but at my last weigh in I'd lost 2.6kgs of that and hope to be back on track over the next couple of weeks and lose the rest which will put me down into the 80s, the 80s people.

In other news we got our treadmill and I have used it, twice infact. I started doing the C25K and then discovered you should actually read intructions on such things so as not to injure and almost cripple yourself. So i've put that on hold and will probably start again tomorrow, I should have started yesterday, it feels odd to not start something on a Monday, I know, I know, I'm odd.

So that's where I'm standing at the moment, will see how I go this week, I'll try to keep up with my blog more often, at least once a week, I know I neglect it and you all, I'll try not to in future :D