Nervous and excited

Am coming to the end of my weight watchers phase of my weight loss. Which I'm excited and nervous about. Weight watchers got me to this point which is completely awesome but I feel the need for something new, something to be excited about and different to get me to goal. And don't get me wrong, weight watchers totally works and would have gotten me to goal but I've lost the passion and drive a little bit, I would have kept chugging along but I need that giant kick up the bum, no more chugging, time to gear things up a bit.

But I am nervous about doing the 12WBT, weight watchers was easy, really easy in fact, so I'm nervous that this is going to be hard and I'm going to fail. But I'm going to give it a good hard crack and am arming myself with the tools that will help me to be successful. I'm going to buy Michelle Bridges DVDs, her calorie counter, I'll get some new runners, I'm on the look out for a decent priced heart rate monitor so I can see how many calories I'm burning when I work out and I'll get some heavier weights too. So I intend to do this properly and I'm serious, I hope that's enough to get the motor running and get to goal.

I've been making goals for 2012, and of course my main one is to get to my weight loss goal. I also want to get fit and toned. I want to do a fun run and RUN the whole thing. I also want to see more live shows (comedy, musicals, roller derby). I want to go to Sydney and do the bridge climb. I'm sure I'll find more along the way, but for now, those are my 2012 goals. Have you made any?

Changes

I lost 500g this week, wooooooooooo. I exercised yesterday and boy am I feeling it today, but this is a kind of pain that I like because it means I worked hard and did my body good. And I took a big step today and put in the application to cancel my weight watchers account getting ready to start 12WBT next month. I'm excited and nervous at this next step, I hope I can do it and I'm hoping it will kick my butt to goal quicker and help get some toning going.

I haven't gone back to C25K yet, well not consistently. I'm not sure I want to, I think I'm looking for more than just running right now. I think that's what I'm looking forward to mostly doing 12WBT, it has exercise not just food which is where weight watchers lets you down. I've still been jumping on the treadmill but not running lots like I was, just a couple of minutes here and there. Which reminds me I really need new runners, maybe I'll get some before 12WBT starts :D

Bring on the start of the round, I'm ready!

Exercise

It's me! Back again. I did a weigh in and gain 100g, but I forgot and weighed in after I ate breakfast (I usually weigh in before) so maybe that was a mistake, but not a big gain anyway.

It's taken me a while to get back into exercise, totally unmotivated and also busy, busy, busy, but being busy isn't really an excuse is it? But I did exercise today and I felt really good once I was done. Much better about myself so why can't I keep that motivation all the time? *sigh* Hopefully I was just in a bit of a funk with it and I can get it back from now on. I found some great exercise workouts on youTube, they're quick and fairly easy, I just have to get used to them and try to get over being uncordinated with some of them :D

I've put my name on the 12WBT website and booked my place to start the next round, hopefully this will kick my butt to my goal and help me get fit and toned.

Such a bad blogger

So here I am again. I've spent the last 3-4 weeks losing my mojo and being sick. Am finally better and I'm slowly getting my mojo back. In the 3-4 weeks I've had off I put on 3.5kgs, therefore putting myself back into the 90s *sigh* But I've gone back to tracking my food, drinking my water and slowly getting back into my exercise, it's amazing how quickly you can become unfit :( I've had to go back a few weeks in my C25K but hopefully this time I am complete the program.

Christmas is looming 5 weeks, 4 days, and I'm hoping to lose 12.3kgs by then to get to my Christmas goal, but maybe that might be unrealistic, maybe I might need to change it to New Year's goal, I would like to be at my major goal of 70kgs by my birthday (17th March) but I don't know. I've decided to do the 12WBT starting late January, maybe that might help kick my butt the rest of the way? Here's hoping anyway, at the very least, unless everything goes to complete hell, I'll definitely be at goal by Christmas next year, hopefuly I'll just be maintaining by then, or who knows, maybe I might be less than my goal, depending on how I feel at 70kgs, we will just have to see. I'll definitely be working on toning everything up that's for sure. I'll never wear a bikini which is fine, but as long as I feel good that's the most important thing.

Ok, it's been a while since I posted photos so, I'd better do that. Some of them I'm wearing the same clothes so I've added before and after tags :D

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Interesting..

A friend of mine on posted an interesting post on his blog The Preston Institute and I totally agree with what he's saying (he thought I might want to beat him up though, lol). Weight loss becomes dangerous when people take it to extremes, cutting out everything "bad" makes you more likely to fall off the wagon and go back to your old ways, it's hard to maintain because you're depriving yourself. I totally agree with "everything in moderation" approach to weight loss and that's why I went with Weight Watchers. If I want to eat McDonalds with my family I can, if I want to have a piece of cake at a party I can, if I want to have a celebratory dinner with my husband I can. Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed, how can you do that when you make weight loss your everything? We aren't 1 dimensional, whilst I am all about weight loss and getting fitter and healthier I am many other things too and cannot imagine just only ever talking to people about weight loss etc, I love talking and will talk about many things. I also pick who I talk more about weight loss too, generally those that are in the same boat as me, if a person isn't interested then I'm not going to bore them by talking and talking about it.

I also do not force my weight loss on others and tell them what they should/shouldn't be eating, well apart from my kids, I try to encourage them to eat healthy food and try to teach them about foods they should only eat sometimes, but that's my job as their mum. I have no right to force my weight loss onto others, well not to ram it down their throats anyway. If you come for lunch or dinner at my house it will most likely be a Weight Watchers recipe or something relatively healthy, but it will be tasty :D

Bascially what I'm saying is when weight loss takes over every fibre of your being and you become a food Nazi and over radical about it, it's really not a healthy approach. An everything in moderation approach, whilst it may take you longer to get to your goal, you'll get there in a much healthier and happier way and you'll be more likely to get to your goal and maintain it. Weight loss is hard enough already, don't make it harder on yourself by making yourself miserable and not enjoying life.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

OMG OMG OMG OMG. I can't stop saying OMG, clearly. I weighed in today as I feel I was pretty good this last week, just to see how I was doing, OMG I lost 3.6kgs, taking me down to 88.8kgs, 88.8! I cannot believe it, I have NEVER been this weight, well not as an adult anyway. So in total I have lost 36.2kgs and have only 18.8kgs to go until I get to goal, I can't believe I am THAT close. I have a christmas goal of 80kgs so only 8.8kgs until I get to that YAY! Some weight loss stats for you, since having my twin girls (2 years ago), I have lost 53.2kgs and since having my son (6 years ago) I have lost 61.2kgs, that's a whole person!!!

It's been a while since I blogged, since I stopped weighing in I guess I feel I don't really have anything to say, but I should FIND something to say huh? Even if it's to share a yummy recipe, I think I'll do that from now on, unless you like be being quiet ;)

So until next time, lets hope I can keep everything up :D

R U OK DAY

September 15th is R U OK DAY. Take the time if you don't usually to ask someone  R U OK. It’s a national day of action which aims to prevent suicide by encouraging Australians to connect with someone they care about and help stop little problems turning into big ones. You can find out more at www.ruokday.com.au

Insecurities.....

We all have them, some a few, some many and about all sorts of things. I have a few my main one, besides the vain ones is losing friends. No matter how much I weigh, or how I look this will always be an insecurity. I'm a nice person, people often say too nice. I don't think I'm too nice, I'm just me, I can't turn it off. Well I guess I could if I really, really tried hard, but it's me and it would mean changing who I am. I do reign myself in sometimes when I feel I going a bit overboard, I've had people use my niceness to THEIR advantage and then toss me aside when they feel I no longer have a purpose, however I've also lost people by scaring them off by being nice, seems sometimes I cannot find that happy medium. I hope someone knows what I'm talking about, I don't want to sound like a complete nut. I find it hard to get past that an unanswered text/e-mail/facebook messgae etc doesn't mean that I've said something I shouldn't have or been OTT or maybe they've just stopped liking me. I search through what I may have said etc and I tell myself that they're probably just busy or they forgot etc but my brain never goes there first. Something I definitely need to work on, I don't think I'm currently friends with anyone who would just drop me like a hot potato, but that insecurity is back there still and honestly it probably always will be but I think I can train my brain to possibly not to go the extreme first and think that maybe they just might be busy and or they forgot :D

1.3kg loss, wooooooohoooooo

Eureka! Finally a big loss, AND I did it all on my lonesome. I decided to do a final weekly weigh in, I might weigh in and take my measurements once a month. Was very happy to see such a big loss with no WW tracking to hold my hand, and that is just the best feeling. Of course I did use WW methods that are instilled in my brain, but that's what I was hoping to do, so wooooooooooooooooot. So my weight is currently sitting at 92.8kgs with a total loss of 32.2kgs, hoping I can continue on the downwards trend and get to under 90kgs in a couple of weeks.

Today I completed week 5 day 3 of the C25K, this being the second time I've done day 3 and it was hard, but it was much easier than when I did it the first time, so yay! Am looking to maybe add some kind of other exercise into the mix, perhaps some boxing? I'd love some personal training, but it's quite expensive, maybe I might look at that once I get to goal if I still need some toning?

But this has been a really good week, I hope I can keep it up, I am determined, but we all know that it can go downhill very quickly. Will see what this next week has to bring :D

Liebster Blog Award

Oh wow, Jane over at http://effiegetskinny.blogspot.com/ gave me my first ever blog award called the Liebster Award.

The idea behind this award is to recognise and share blogs with less than 200 followers. What you have to do is :

• Post the Award on your blog
• Choose 5 other blogs to pass on the award
• Leave each of those (5) blogs a comment 

I've given my awards to people that I love and have been inspired by in one way or another.

1. http://benpobjie.blogspot.com/ This blog belongs to my husband, who is ridiculously funny and also brave in his battle with depression. He has a quick wit and his writing oozes satire and occasional sarcasm.
2. http://www.projectseb.com/ This blog belongs to my gorgeous friend Seb. Seb is a beautiful man who sadly is also battling depression. His blog is so incredibly brave and never fails to either make me laugh or make me cry.
3. http://a-warped-view.blogspot.com/ This is my darling friend Tif's blog. I adore Tif with all my heart, she's like my sister. Tif's blog is varying in post topics from films, to her puppy, to her struggle with depression, to her gorgeous family. A wonderful blog belonging to a wonderful and strong woman.
4. http://jessisfound.blogspot.com/ This blog belongs to Jess and I found her through the Weight Watchers forum. I've loved following her blog as I've been on the same journey as her. It's awesome to see the triumps and struggles that someone else has had that you can so eaily relate to it's what keeps you going.
5. http://eatingeveryday.wordpress.com/ The final blog belongs to another gorgeous friend of mine, Keri who is newly married and just returned today from her honeymoon. Keri has of course been posting about her wedding preparations but she's also on a weight loss journey like me and is a bit of a foodie so has lots of yummy recipes to drool over.

If I could return the award to Jane I would because I love reading her blog and am proud of her and her journey, thank you for giving me this award Jane *hugs* you are one super and supportive lady xxx

Dusting myself off

So have a good think about things and look at things and listening to what friends have had to say about my situation I know that I have been a bit of an idiot, and dropped my bundle unnecessarily. When things bombard you and end up landing right on top of you it's hard to see a way out and see the good things. So yesterday I took my measurements and they helped to accentuate the positives (which granted I should have done before deciding to be said idiot), so positives being, in the last 3 weeks I lost 4cms off my waist, 1cm off my hips, 1 cm off my arms and 4.5cms off my thighs. So clearly I have to stop weighing in and just go by measurements, which leads into my next news that I'm going to stop doing weight watchers. I'm still going to be signed up so I know it's there to fall back on, but I'm going to just concerntrate on eating healthy only when I'm hungry, drinking my water and exercise. I think the weighing in each week is starting to do my head in, especially now I'm exercising and building muscle, not seeing the weight come off is starting to be damaging and I can't do it anymore. I'll weigh in every now and then just to see how I'm going, but not weekly. Fingers crossed this works and stops me from stupidity and dragging me down into terrible funks, I don't like feeling that way, and I don't want to do it anymore.

So that's where I'm at, let's see how this goes.

Failing and lost

This sums up exactly how I feel right now. I feel that I'm failing at everything and succeeding at nothing. I'm lost (and mostly failing) at being a wife trying to support a husband with severe depression, being a mother, being a friend, being a daughter, weight loss(massive gain this week 1.6kgs). And when you strip away those things, I have nothing and am nothing so what is my purpose in life? If all those things are my purpose then how come I am failing at them? What happened to me? I feel like me is completely lost and I don't know where to find her and how to combine everything to make her and everyone else happy. That's all I want, for everyone to be happy, because I love them with all of my heart, my husband, my children, my mum and my friends. And me, I want to be happy too. I hate who I have become right now and it happened very quickly, like a lift failing and falling into a pit of sadness and failure. I'm feeling like everywhere I turn I see failure and I should just stamp it on my forehead and crawl into a hole *sigh*. I need to do some soul searching I think, where to start I don't know, and i'll feel guilty for it because I hate being selfish and thinking of myself.

Sorry everyone, clearly not out of my funk and having a pity party, i'll bring the dip :(

Back into it

Yes, you read correctly I have pulled my socks up and gotten back into it, had the best weekend with gorgeous friends and I'm ready to kick my own butt again and get into it. I will expect a gain tomorrow, because I would be stupid not to really. The situps, pushups and squats gave me a good workout on Tuesday, my muscles are still sore today which isn't good because I've got to do them again today and I just mamanged to do my C25K run yesterday because my legs were dead, lol. But I shall press on and hope that I don't further injure myself and hopefully look forward to a loss next week.

And hooray! it's spring and thankfully the weather has been nice so we've been able to walk to school in the afternoon to collect my son which is lovely so I get a little more exercise in my day which is great. Will try to blog me weigh in tomorrow if I get a chance :)

Well that was a surprise....

I lost 200g this week. Not much but at least it's in the right direction, so huzzah! So my weight is sitting on 92.5kgs, total loss of 32.5kgs with 22.2kgs to go. And so now I'm coming to the lowest weight I have gotten to so far 92.0. I've never been under that before, I don't think I'm capable
of losing big numbers anymore so I'll expect it to take me a few weeks, but I am determined to get into the 80s DETERMINED!!!

As I said, I'm going to take the weekend off, enjoy time with gorgeous friends and good food, then start again on Monday. I'm going to track ALL my food, ALL my exercise, am going to DO ALL my exercise and I'm going to drink ALL my water. But most important of all I'M GOING TO GET OUT OF THIS FUNK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I don't you have permission to give me a swift kick in the behind.

*sigh*

Well it appears that my mojo has completely gone now :( This makes me really sad and I hope it comes back soon. I hate feeling this way but I guess it was bound to happen really, acutally it's probably not the first time, I can't remember. But man this is a looooooooooong difficult journey, really, really difficult. And don't get me wrong, I know I've come a long way and it's not like I'm not seeing results but I do still have such a long way to go.

I try not to do such negative posts but I just feel in such a funk right now and I'm not sure how to get out of it. I think I will take the rest of this week off, have a lovely weekend with lovely friends and hope that my mojo returns on Monday.

Expecting a terrible weigh in tomorrow, but I guess I'll cross that bridge tomorrow, not going to help my funk though *sigh*

Finding it hard.....

Hard to stay motivated with my eating. For some reason this week seems to have gone to hell, and I'm not really sure why, perhaps the monotony of it all? Exercise isn't a problem, I'm totally motivated with that, but my eating, nope. Not that I'm going and eating a whole bunch of rubbish (well only a little bit) but I'm not binging or anything but I'm just not caring. I don't think I've been eating enough with all my exercise as I haven't been putting it into my tracker and therefore have been having extra points and not using them, possibly that's why my weightloss has slowed down? Which sounds weird I know but you do need to eat enough of the right things TO lose weight.

Anyway, I'm going to assume this week will be a write off, I will definitely be expecting a gain unless I find my motivation somewhere by tomorrow. I'll keep up with my exercise, probably even step it up a bit, but don't be surprised if I am reporting a gain on Friday, I know I won't be.

Eureka!

A loss, hooray! 600g only, but maybe I'm done with the big numbers now, which is a shame because I'd love another big loss to get me down into the 80s, I'm yet to crack the 80s and I'd really LOVE to, that's my next mini goal. So my 600g loss takes me to a total of 32.3kgs lost and my weight is sitting at 92.7.

Am up to week 5, well completed sort of, week 5 of C25K. And OMG sooooooooooo hard. I didn't want to vomit and die which was good but I did step on the sides a few times to talk myself out and then in of finishing. So because of that I will repeat week 5 and be sure to finish it properly. Still doing situps, pushups and squats. They're getting easier and I'm no longer getting sore afterwards thank goodness, because I was in SO much pain.

Onto photos, I got new hair and we went to the wedding I mentioned in my previous post :D









So there we have it folks, lets see what this next week brings :D

A gain *sigh*

Only 300g, but it's still annoying. I've been keeping up with my C25K, which is running for 3 minutes as well as 5 minutes and I have also been doing situps, pushups and squats (only once though, will talk about that in a minute), but I'm assuming I have put on muscle and that's accounting for the gain, but still grrrrrrrrrrr. It's much nicer to see the scales going down, but I think I will go to taking measurments more regularly now because in a week I lost cms so that is encouraging. But I also must remind myself that I am also getting fitter which is also a plus of doing all my exercise.

Back to the situps, pushups and squats, OMG they are HARD. I'm still in pain from doing them, paticularly the squats, clearly I've not used these muscles nearly enough before now. I've not done them again since because I have been sooooooooooooo sore, but I will, I think I will slot them in between the days I do the C25K which means I'll be doing some form of exercise every day with Sunday being my rest day.

So that's where this week has taken me, lets see what this next week brings, I've been a bit indulgent this weekend I will admit, so I'll be working VERY hard this week to hopefully not see a gain, eating extremely healthily and maybe even saving a few points here and there because I think I will have used more than my bonus points, oops!

See you next week, I'm sure i'll be late with my post AGAIN, because we have a wedding on Friday :D :D

Photos, Pondering and Progress

Ok first things first. Weigh in today and I'm down another 900g, which takes me to having lost 32kgs, 93kgs is my current weight and I have 23kgs to go until I get to my goal. I'll be honest and say I'm a little bit disappointed in 900g, I was hoping for more as I've been good this week and have been doing the C25K program as I'm supposed to, but I'm still happy it was a loss.

I had a little cry today thinking about how far I've come, and it really is a long way. And the fact that I am doing the C25K program even though it's really quite hard, especially considering I've gone from no running to being able to currently run 3 minutes, which is good seeing as I am still curring that extra 23kgs. I've still got a way to go, but I'm really proud of myself for continuing on with it even though it would have been so easy sometimes to just give up. I am still VERY determined to get to my goal, I've come far too far to give up now.

The C25K is going well, I just today completed week 3 day 3 of the program (i'll be honest with some difficulty) and it is getting easier. This week wasn't that easy so I think I will repeat this week next week. But I have made progress, I no longer want to vomit and die when I finish, and today I didn't get the shakes afterwards like I normally do when I finished today, so I have definitely made progress. I will get to the end of the program, not giving up now. Am also thinking about getting some more weights, we've got some but I don't think they're heavy enough, need to get rid of the bingo wings I've got happening.

So, time for some photos. We have another wedding to go to so there are some dress pics too, have decided to go with the black and purple dress :D Oh and the last picture is of my old boardshorts with new boardshorts on topm bear in mind when I first got the first pair the buttons used to pop open, I can fit into one leg of those boardshorts now ;)

Running, running, running.

Well the title says it all really, I've been running. Restarted the C25K program and loving it. It's not easy, it's a challenge, but it's really great. I find at times when I normally would pike out on doing exercise I just get on with it and do it which I great, seeing as I went from being a sporty person to being a sloth. I've just completed week 2 and although hard I do not want to vomit and die like I did when I first started, so that's evidence of progress.

I had a loss in yesterday's weigh in 800g, not a lot but a loss is a loss and I'll take it :D Have nearly lost that nasty 5kgs that crept back on, and then hopefully I'll keep going down and down. I feel I've REALLY got my mojo back. I'm tracking, I'm not nibbling on things I shouldn't, I keep my naughty food days to the weekend and then am really good for the rest of the week. I'm still terrible with water, better than I used to be, but still terrible (I know, I know) but doing the running is forcing me to drink more which I good :D

I did my measurements again and since last month I have lost another 4cms off my waist, 6cms off my hips, 3cms off my bust, 1cm off my arms and 1cm off my thighs. So since I started I've lost in total 24cms off my waist, 26cms off my hips, 22.5cms off my bust, 4cms off arms, 6cms off thighs and 6 dress sizes. That's a solid effort I reckon in 1 year and almost 2 months. I probably could have been much more dedicated etc but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way, especially when you've got 3 small kids :D But as I always say, I'm determined to get to my goal and I KNOW that I will :D

Will post some photos next time I blog, which will hopefully be next Friday after I weigh in (fingers crossed for a big one :D)

Sorry Folks......

I left it a long time again, sorry guys. Have been through some personal things that I won't go into, but things are going well and I'm back. Needless to say I got off track a little and put on nearly 5kgs in 2 weeks, but at my last weigh in I'd lost 2.6kgs of that and hope to be back on track over the next couple of weeks and lose the rest which will put me down into the 80s, the 80s people.

In other news we got our treadmill and I have used it, twice infact. I started doing the C25K and then discovered you should actually read intructions on such things so as not to injure and almost cripple yourself. So i've put that on hold and will probably start again tomorrow, I should have started yesterday, it feels odd to not start something on a Monday, I know, I know, I'm odd.

So that's where I'm standing at the moment, will see how I go this week, I'll try to keep up with my blog more often, at least once a week, I know I neglect it and you all, I'll try not to in future :D

Measurements and some work to do.

So I did my measurements today, some great results but some show that I've got some work to do I think. I've lost 20cms off both my waist and my hips, 19.5cms off my bust, 3cms off my arms, 5cms off my thighs and in total I have lost 6 dress sizes. But my arms and my legs are saying I've got some work to do. So it looks like I'll be gunning it on the treadmill and doing lots of weights and Wii Fit work outs :D But I say bring it on!

Shocked!

OMG I just CANNOT believe it. This last week I lost 2.5kgs. 2.5!!! How did that happen you ask? Well I have simply no idea. I didn't drink as much water as I should have, and I had some naughty salted caramel slice at a friend's house the day before I weighed in. So I am completely stunned, thrilled of course, but stunned. So this takes me to a total loss of 33kgs in 12 months 2 weeks, that's like my twins girls gone in weight *shocked face*. However if you've been following my blog you'll remember that after my son I actually weighed 150kgs, so since then I have actually lost 58kgs. My goodness 58kgs is like a whole person, I'm sure one of my dear friends weighs about that much, that's good but also terrible. I will never, NEVER go back to that again.

Weighing in on Friday seems to have been a very good decision, I'm glad about that. And soup is going to be my staple lunch meal this winter. I make a big pot of pumpkin (I sometimes add in other veg too) and have it with a toasted sandwich or a roll, very filling and very delicious. I also bought some microwave ones so I can vary things a bit so I don't get bored.

In other news I went shopping and got some new clothes (haven't worn them all yet) and we bought the treadmill, should be here next week :D :D woooooooooooot. So lots of excitement. I must also do my measurements, it's been a while, would be interesting to see what the differences are now.


Ok photo time: (and yes the last one is a picture of my butt, because I wanted to show the bling :D)

Hooray!

Well it seems changing my weigh in day to Friday was a good idea (so far anyway) I lost 1.1kgs which takes me back to having lost 30kgs (30.5kgs to be exact) and having my naughty day be on Friday or Saturday. I'm glad I finally worked it out, took me a while huh? Oh and I forgot my 1 year anniversary. I have now been doing WW for a year hooray! Here's to another year and hopefully the reaching of my goal :D That seems like a long time, but slow and steady wins the race, I think it's realistic and definitely achievable.

Also, we are getting a treadmill!! Wooooooooooot. Have found a good looking new one on ebay, so will be getting that soon. Can't wait! I think I'm going to start by doing the C25K and work my way up. So excited, I still have to urge to run, I hope it stays. I want to use the treadmill together with my Wii Fit (yes I will be using it not just for weigh ins) so I can be a lean, mean, non fighting machine.

My husband gave me a Target gift card a couple of weeks ago so on Sunday I will be shopping and hopfully buying myself some new clothes :)

Ooooh it's been a while....

Same old story too, busy, busy, busy. We had a big party on Saturday to celebrate my husband's second book so I've been busy preparing for that. Of course I didn't eat well, but I'll work hard the rest of the week. I decided to change my weigh in day to Fridays, last Friday I lost 400g, so still not back to 30kgs lost, but getting there :D Friday weight ins made more sense seeing as my husband no longer works weekends and that's the time where we are more likely to eat out or get take away. With having the party on Saturday I still need to learn to plan these types of things better, I should have had healthier options for myself which would have made things perfect, but I'm getting there with things slowly, hard to think of everything all at once.

Anyway, have some new photos :D

The last photos is my current favourite picture of myself, it's taken a LONG time for me to like a photo of myself :D It's actually a nice feeling, sorry to everyone that has to put up with me posting pictures of myself all about the place, lol.

Right, that's this post done, lets see how I go this next week :D